Posted 21 December 2011 - 06:18 PM
Mobile mail about her not participating in the AKB Kouhaku:
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Other members from the same generation gets to perform unit songs while I couldn't get to perform, few days ago the plan was to let me sing "Everyday Kachyusha", but suddenly because I'm not 16 yet so I can't perform...
But later on staff said that they'll let me perform as some back dancer, but on the day I was told that "there's no costume so you can't perform".
I was so disappointed that I almost cried. What do everyone else have that I don't? I spent a lot of time thinking about that.
My singing is so bad and there are a lot more places which I'm not as good as others... Though disappointed all I can do is cheer for the White Group. I tried my best and put in all my effort into cheering...
Frankly, when I was cheering there were times when my tears were about to drop, I tried hard not to cry. "This isn't worth crying.. this isn't worth crying.." I kept telling myself.
But now when I think about it my tears are starting to come out...
I feel really sad seeing other members from the same generation saying that it was very fun.
I don't really express my feelings in front of others, but yesterday I was so sad and disappointed...
From now on, without looking too awkward I will try my best to express myself better.