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Nice guys finish last.. that's why I'll treat you like trash. It's not what I really wanna do..
Posted by Corrugo,
29 October 2011
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I'm listening to that song by Kevjumb, Nigahiga and I forget his name. Anyway..
I'm starting to turn into something I did NOT want, one of those guys obsessed with sex and I don't think I am but damn is it getting hard, no pun intended.
Ignoring the Stephanie bit, Devour was in my head for a good bit for some reason. I think I felt even if she was using me, she really did need me.. probably not but if felt more real than anything with Stephanie.
Luckily she never messaged me (I say luckily 'cause based on her facebook she's back in this area =O )
One day on Okcupid I noticed someone that seemed familiar, she looked similar to the girl Mecum ditched us for soon after my father died. My suspicions were correct. Somehow I spelled suspicions correctly which surprised me..
We talked and she is pretty much my biggest sexual weakness. The whole cute girl doing bad things that drives me crazy in my pants. She's nerdy, goofy, funny and we have similar beliefs but of course she's cute, smokes and used to do heroin which for some reason excites me. -.- I sicken myself, I became obsessed with talking to her as per usual and well.. most likely doink her face off. I.. 'handled myself' and the lust for her diminished and the idea of me wanting lust over love has annoyed me to the point where I'm just like if she wants to talk to me, she'll message me otherwise I'm being stupid.
That was going well.. til my best friend's brother's ex randomly messages me asking me for a picture of my penis. NO IDEA WHY! I meant it when I said randomly, 'cause I think she's attractive but the feeling never seemed mutual and I've been friends with her for a good.. 3-4 years now. Then she asks me that..
.. oh but it gets better! She sends me pics of her, which I'm sure you can guess what they contained. You are correct, they had gerbils riding dragons in them, Which you know, was weird to see. Thank god I made that up.. it was just nudey pictures, kinda.
I am sad to admit I sent my pe-.. picture to her. And just.. ugh.
last time I even had sex was with Brenda and that was like 3-4 months ago, maybe 5. Only really happened 'cause I got depressed and she's kind of a slut.
It just annoys me.. yes, I annoy myself. I don't know how this even happened!
First there was that Jamie chick and that was mainly due to depression and feeling inadequacy towards my friends who had sex (Minus Colvin and Bruce of course) and made that stupid decision only to regret it FAST.
Then I think it was Erin and well.. I was attracted to her and it just happened. Don't really regret that >->
Stephanie is obvious, we were in a relationship and quite frankly it's strange if couples aren't having sex in this area. Then came Devour which I kind of regret only 'cause it was mainly a revenge thing to get back at Stephanie but damn was it good revenge.. >-> Anywho..
Then I think it was Brenda. I HATE wanting that stupid thing but I have cravings. I'd love to kill my sex drive off for good if I knew how.
So at the moment, I like Mecum's ex, and Mick's ex might be interested? I hope I'm just having an ego trip and over-thinking things. Though some sex dreams make me wanna just doink Brenda, once I remind myself what a whore she is I'm turned off but I dunno how long it'll last.
Hey cool I finished a blog entry, well kinda. I dunno what's considered finished but I got my thoughts out so.. yeah
Aloha yo~
I'm starting to turn into something I did NOT want, one of those guys obsessed with sex and I don't think I am but damn is it getting hard, no pun intended.
Ignoring the Stephanie bit, Devour was in my head for a good bit for some reason. I think I felt even if she was using me, she really did need me.. probably not but if felt more real than anything with Stephanie.
Luckily she never messaged me (I say luckily 'cause based on her facebook she's back in this area =O )
One day on Okcupid I noticed someone that seemed familiar, she looked similar to the girl Mecum ditched us for soon after my father died. My suspicions were correct. Somehow I spelled suspicions correctly which surprised me..
We talked and she is pretty much my biggest sexual weakness. The whole cute girl doing bad things that drives me crazy in my pants. She's nerdy, goofy, funny and we have similar beliefs but of course she's cute, smokes and used to do heroin which for some reason excites me. -.- I sicken myself, I became obsessed with talking to her as per usual and well.. most likely doink her face off. I.. 'handled myself' and the lust for her diminished and the idea of me wanting lust over love has annoyed me to the point where I'm just like if she wants to talk to me, she'll message me otherwise I'm being stupid.
That was going well.. til my best friend's brother's ex randomly messages me asking me for a picture of my penis. NO IDEA WHY! I meant it when I said randomly, 'cause I think she's attractive but the feeling never seemed mutual and I've been friends with her for a good.. 3-4 years now. Then she asks me that..
.. oh but it gets better! She sends me pics of her, which I'm sure you can guess what they contained. You are correct, they had gerbils riding dragons in them, Which you know, was weird to see. Thank god I made that up.. it was just nudey pictures, kinda.
I am sad to admit I sent my pe-.. picture to her. And just.. ugh.
last time I even had sex was with Brenda and that was like 3-4 months ago, maybe 5. Only really happened 'cause I got depressed and she's kind of a slut.
It just annoys me.. yes, I annoy myself. I don't know how this even happened!
First there was that Jamie chick and that was mainly due to depression and feeling inadequacy towards my friends who had sex (Minus Colvin and Bruce of course) and made that stupid decision only to regret it FAST.
Then I think it was Erin and well.. I was attracted to her and it just happened. Don't really regret that >->
Stephanie is obvious, we were in a relationship and quite frankly it's strange if couples aren't having sex in this area. Then came Devour which I kind of regret only 'cause it was mainly a revenge thing to get back at Stephanie but damn was it good revenge.. >-> Anywho..
Then I think it was Brenda. I HATE wanting that stupid thing but I have cravings. I'd love to kill my sex drive off for good if I knew how.
So at the moment, I like Mecum's ex, and Mick's ex might be interested? I hope I'm just having an ego trip and over-thinking things. Though some sex dreams make me wanna just doink Brenda, once I remind myself what a whore she is I'm turned off but I dunno how long it'll last.
Hey cool I finished a blog entry, well kinda. I dunno what's considered finished but I got my thoughts out so.. yeah
Aloha yo~
