It is sad .. its been so long ..
Basically I am always just waiting for her to do that .. and when it come .. I just feel empty ..
She was the 2nd one I like in SKE48 ..
Despite she seem to be doing everything right .. she have always fail to get a senbatsu slot on SKE48 ..
Then as usual .. time go by and she get push back by the newcomers ..
Basically she does not much on the later half of her career except for just fishing ..
She got a place for senbastu election last year .. and I think that she is going to graduate soon ..
For some reason .. Older members who finally won a place at senbatsu election will leave before the next election ..
It always happen .. I didn't think about it as she didn't apply for this year election because she has not apply before in the 2014 election..
I thought it is not going to happen .. but she left it late .. and it happen ..
In 2011, when SKE48 came my country .. I miss their arrival at the airport and was camping outside the concert area the night before where they are having rehearsal ..
They came out and I manage to get her attention with my huge signboard of her and I manage to pass her my gift to her ..
She got it and was jumping up and down happily .. it was a fine moment any fan when you can make your oshimen happy ..
But of course .. as she start to fade .. so did my fandom and also it get diluted as I like more SKE48 girls ..
She was an highly important oshimen in my old fandom which build towards my love for SKE48 and whom I kind of forgot along the way ..
I was ready for this for years but for some reason .. it still hurt so much