Over the years, idols have become an irreplaceable existence to me. Somehow, even though we're miles apart and we never met, they managed to create a certain feeling of proximity that I don't get out of regular singers. I can't remember how many of my days were saved just by watching a concert video, or even simple pictures.
Yet, as much as I love them, there's still one thing that bothers me: I'm still ashamed to openly admit that I'm an Idol fan. My close friends or relative do know, of course, but even to them, I don't disclose how much of a Mizuki fan I am for exemple. I would never admit to someone i know little that I enjoy watching teenage girls singing and dancing, they would find me weird O_o Even to collegues that I'm close to, i joke about it by saying that I listen to girls in mini skirt (that's my catch line at work) but i never let them listen to those songs (tough they asked numerous times).
Right now, what I'm wondering about is:
- Am I the only one that have trouble claiming my fandom openly ?
- Would it be easier to claim my fandom if i was surrounded by similar ppl ? (i suppose yes, that's the reason I started this blog here)
IIIIDDDDOOOLLLSSSSSS DDAAAAIIIIISSSSUUUKKKKIIII !!!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm allowed here, aren't I ? O_o)
EyC-FTT
Yet, as much as I love them, there's still one thing that bothers me: I'm still ashamed to openly admit that I'm an Idol fan. My close friends or relative do know, of course, but even to them, I don't disclose how much of a Mizuki fan I am for exemple. I would never admit to someone i know little that I enjoy watching teenage girls singing and dancing, they would find me weird O_o Even to collegues that I'm close to, i joke about it by saying that I listen to girls in mini skirt (that's my catch line at work) but i never let them listen to those songs (tough they asked numerous times).
Right now, what I'm wondering about is:
- Am I the only one that have trouble claiming my fandom openly ?
- Would it be easier to claim my fandom if i was surrounded by similar ppl ? (i suppose yes, that's the reason I started this blog here)
IIIIDDDDOOOLLLSSSSSS DDAAAAIIIIISSSSUUUKKKKIIII !!!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm allowed here, aren't I ? O_o)
EyC-FTT
It would definitely be easier if you are around people who are in the same fandom. I don't have any H!P fans in London but boy, do I know a lot of K-Pop fans O_O I wish I knew more H!P fans in London, that would make me happy
On the internet though, you are free and anonymous to be who you are so don't be afraid to express yourself as an idol fan here, ftt.