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Where there was end, there might be a beginning.For the past year I've cut myself away even more than before with watching old concerts: not only I was not checking new content, I stopped even getting it. Only kept up a bit with the news and selected SNS. But at the beginning of April this has changed: I've started with KKS stages, as I wanted to see 5th gen - I felt that it is going to be important in previous April, I have mixed this though with the rediscovery of Someone Very Important. I have found candidates and now (already two weeks!) they have passed the necessary trial of time and I can announce new regular oshi:
- Iwata Momoka
- Jonishi Rei
- Hongou Yuzuha
I'm checking also stages of teams. In N I was amazed by Keicchi, Sayanee looking like a girl again was like a pretty miracle, too. Two days ago (today is 2017-04-18, that overnight session...) I have downloaded Tochuu Gesha and watched twice. First time was hard, another broke something in me: I couldn't stand how I have ignored Kei, as well as almost a whole group; I felt clearly and deeply that for almost all these years since I saw a fresh video from opening of NMB48's theater I was watching, but not seeing; observing, but not feeling. I'm even asking myself now: what if I have picked a wrong Watanabe? A wrong group? I just slid on the beautiful surface, overslept that time - and now almost whole generation is gone, second and third also decimated by time.
The legacy is not gone though, Akarin doesn't give up: the recent time was so beautiful. As emotional as I have probably never experienced: there were love and loneliness, happiness and sadness, regret and gratitude, loss and hope, cry and laugh, disorientation and determination... Again being human. So many things changed, such different feelings, such a different world. And that ultimate gift of the Sun - even distant - that guides me now, even if I still can't believe in its miracle.
This is the end.
Namba takes everything.
