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19 March 2011 - 02:23 PM
@ glass- lol I didn't even mention Sayu being single in this chapter. 
@ feralia87- Yes it is. It's the sequel. lol Yes, TakaGaki are also not together. You'll see why...eventually. lol I hope you enjoy the fic though.
@ mmsuki- Yes, there is a prequel and a sequel. I'll probably just focus on the sequel more because it's easier for me to write. It's alright if you didn't comment on TTCL. I have plenty of lurkers who do the same. lol TanaShige?! And the bigger shock for me...AiEri?!! How can that happen? But you'll see who will be paired with whom later on.
CHAPTER 2
The drive to the restaurant Sayu chose wasn't so far from my house. It's probably a thirty minute drive. However, I don't think it gave me enough time to prepare myself for the meeting, or to brace myself if Sayu did bring a date for me.
I'm still a little bit shaken from the last date she tried to hook me up with. When I was directed to my table by the waiter I felt relieved to only see Sayu at the table waiting for us. This meant there was no date for me, just quality bonding with my friends.
“Reina~ Ai-chan!” Sayu yells excitingly. “Sit down. A waiter will come soon.” She sighs. “I'm glad you're here. Since I got here some waiter kept hitting on me. I hope he leaves me alone now that I have some company.”
Sayu is still with Koharu. I don't know how they make it work since Sayu's a college student and Koharu's a senior in high school. They're both very busy, but neither of them come to me about any complaints.
So, I assume their relationship is going well. They're starting to look like the perfect couple compared to Ai-chan and I. Shouldn't we be setting the good example since we're their senpais?
“So...I guess this means we should order.” Ai-chan casually says.
I put a hand to my temple unsure how I can stand being here. I'm regretting this now and I have no reason to, but I sort of feel like...panicking. Everything around me is unsettling. I've been getting that feeling a lot. I can never seem to calm down and I've been fidgeting more because I feel restless. I guess Ai-chan was right when she said I should see a doctor. I sigh.
“Let's get some beer.” I mumble.
“Reina, can't you wait for later?” Ai-chan scolds.
Lately, beer has been what calms my nerves besides yakiniku. Ai-chan likes to monitor my drinking though for some reason. If I wanted to be around my mom I would have told her to move in with me the day dad died, but she's not here. She's with my grandparents and I'm left with a large house to myself.
I know that it's up to the children to look after their retired parents, but since my mother and I bump heads too much I didn't offer her to move in with me. I have too much shit to sort out on my own anyway. Besides...I looked forward to Eri moving in with me.
Wishful thinking now. I sink forward into my seat, resting my elbows on the table. I shake my hand at her to gesture for Ai-chan to leave me alone.
“Then order whatever you want!” I snap.
I'm starting to question why I agreed to come here. I just want to be home possibly sulking. I just can't stop thinking about her.
I need to see Eri. I have to be around her. Without her it just feels different, nothing doesn't feel the same without her. Eri is all I've got left to someone close to me. I wish my uncle weren't dead so he can help me. I feel so lost.
***
“Reina.”
I feel patting on my back and groan. Can't my uncle just let me stay in for a little longer? I roll on to my back and start to go back to sleep. Then the patting gets more frequent and a little painful.
“Reina!”
I feel a sharp pain on my back and grunt. Slowly, I open my eyes to kill the person that woke me. The second I do open my eyes though I close them again and bury my head under a pillow. It feels like I just stared into the sun! The sheets around me gets yanked around to my ankles.
“Turn off the lights!” I shout.
I hear moving around me and then a click. Feeling that it's safe to peek out, I carefully remove the pillow over my head and open my eyes again. It's a lot dimmer.
That's better. I rub my eyes and yawn. Then start to stretch. I slouch forward when I'm done and find it difficult to keep my eyes open.
“Ai-chan what the hell are you doing in my house?” I snap.
“You're at my place Reina.” She corrects. “You got a little too drunk at the restaurant, so I decided to take you to my place to watch after you.”
I look at my surroundings more carefully and see that this isn't my house. I'm in Ai-chan's too cramped apartment. I can't remember even coming here or what happened yesterday. I only hope I didn't make a fool of myself. I look down at myself and see that I'm also not in my own clothing.
“I don't remember wearing this to the restaurant.” I mumble.
“I changed your clothes after you passed out.” Ai-chan answers.
I stare at her wide eyed. Does that mean that she... I see her start to laugh.
“Don't worry I didn't take advantage of you.” Ai-chan promises. “Although...I can see how hard it would for other people to not do that.”
I grab a pillow and chuck it at her head. I can feel my face turning red. Ai-chan continues to laugh and ducks from the pillow. I cross my arms over my chest and glare.
“Shut up Ai-chan!” I growl. “And one more thing, why the hell did you wake me up?”
I see Ai-chan walk over to her closet and pull out a few outfits.
“You have work today did you forget?” Ai-chan replies.
I groan. “I knew I shouldn't have told you my work schedule.” I whine.
I feel something land on my head and block my view. I yank it off and see that it's a T-shirt. I look up at Ai-chan who's giving me a stern look.
I think no matter how much I'll threaten her to let me sleep in she'll always do something to set me straight. She can be very scary when she wants to be especially when she's angry. I scoff.
“Fine! I'll get ready but prepare yourself for when I bitch at you from this headache once I'm done with work.” I threaten.
Ai-chan chuckles, completely unafraid to my threatening. She's learned that I almost never mean the threats I say to her. We have to rely on each other now mostly and within a few months we got to know each other and well I kind of regret that now because to Ai-chan I'm just some little kitten with dull claws. It annoys me and she likes that it does.
Although she might get on my nerves, I'm honestly grateful for Ai-chan since there has been nothing but bad changes in my life. My father died, my uncle died, Eri dumped me, and I'm quiet sure my mother now has money problems since my dad's death. I try to send what I have to her, but if I want to keep this house my uncle gave to me I'll have to try and be on time with payments to the mortgage.
So, if someone were to ask me if I really hate Ai-chan I will easily say no because I'm glad she's my friend. She's really all I have now for advice and comfort even when she's in a struggle herself. It's just right now though I really hate her because I don't want to go to work with a slight hang over!!
I'm sure she wouldn't either if she had one, but I don't have a choice. I get out of bed and stumble to my closet. I still plan to bitch at Ai once I get back from work. It only seems fair to complain to her until she falls asleep or yells at me to shut up. I see Ai-chan exit my room to give me privacy to change and I sigh. It's time to start my miserable day.
***
“Good morning Tanaka-san!!” I groan at my coworker's over excited screaming.
Doesn't she ever know how to shut up for just a second?! I walk to the back of the counter and glare. It must seem to scare her because her smile is gone and she puts on a surprised face. I think I can sort of understand now why she's called me scary before. I take my sunglasses off my face and head to the back to get my apron.
I silently get dressed, not feeling in the mood to be as friendly or talkative. I've been in a bad mood since I woke up. I have a slight hangover, my head is killing me, I'm extremely tired, and still completely heartbroken than I was yesterday.
I think I have some sort of a right to be in a grumpy mood. I also know though that I have to play nice with the customers and my workers included, because I need to keep the house I live in. That's just another piece of stress to add into my life, as if I don't get it enough!
I let out a tired groan then walk out the room when I've finished dressing myself and I'm greeting by my newest coworker again. Her happy smile is back on again. I guess she isn't one to stay upset long.
“Tanaka-san, I know it isn't my business to ask but...are you okay?” she speaks in a caring tone.
Oddly, I feel sort of moved by how much she wants to help me. I've always been mean to her when she first started working here and she knows very little about me, but she still acts so nice to me. I don't know why I feel so guilty suddenly I think the lack of sleep is messing with my emotions. This time when I stare at her I don't glare or frown I have on a calm expression.
“I'm okay Linlin. I've just been having some trouble sleeping lately.” I answer, only telling half of the truth to my moodiness.
“Oh, Tanaka-san, if you're that tired I can take your shift.” Linlin suggests.
Sometimes I wonder how a girl her age can not only be so nice, but so innocent as well. It makes it a little harder for me to continue being mean to her. I feel my face move into a small smile that I'm sure can barely be seen from anyone, but Linlin seems to catch it. She has on an even larger smile now. Then without even expecting it to happen Linlin just yanks me into a hug and I freeze. This has just turned a little awkward now!
“It'll be okay Tanaka-san! I'll do my best to take over your shift as well.” Linlin promises.
I notice that a few people are staring at me and because she's shouting more people are looking at us. Is she trying to embarrass me to death?! I can feel my cheeks starting go hot. I wiggle my way out of her arms and have on a small frown.
“Linlin, can you...not do that...ever again?” I ask. “It makes me uncomfortable!”
“I'm sorry Tanaka-san!” Linlin apologizes, yelling again.
I flinch and hold up a hand to motion for her to remain silent. “It's fine just stop yelling!” I whisper. “And thank you for offering, but I need to take this shift. I'll just have to manage.”
Linlin nodded understanding my reason to decline her offer. She excuses herself, seeing that I've had my fill of speaking with her for today and goes away to serve an incoming customer. I don't know if she acts this way because she's a foreigner, or that's just how her personality is, but sometimes Linlin's excessive energy can be a little too much for me to handle.
She says odd things and acts not how a normal Japanese person should, but the way it is done makes it kind of cute. Sure, she has a strong accent, but she'll have time to adjust to the language. She seems to be doing well already, so Chinese can't be that different to learn another language.
I haven't told her this though, but I do kind of enjoy having her here. Linlin makes my work a little more fun and when I'm feeling down she always finds a way to make me laugh. That's one of the things I liked about her. I take a deep breath, preparing myself to tend to my responsibilities as well. I walk out from behind the counter and go over to the nearest table to take orders. I'll be looking forward to my break.
***
I manage to leave from my shift on time today. It just wasn't as packed and the people who are scheduled to work during the night all came, so that meant I didn't have to stay an extra hour. I can't wait to go home and just sleep.
I know I should start some homework, but I'm just too exhausted. I'll have to remind myself to give Ai-chan a nice whack upside her head for making me go to work on probably less then five hours of sleep. When I step outside, I hear my phone beep and reach inside my purse to answer the text.
I flip open the lid and see that it's Ai-chan. I wonder if I should call her and just give her a piece of my mind while screaming into the phone. I look around me and notice that I'm in public, so that leaves shouting into my phone out of the question unless I want to embarrass myself. I look back to my phone and properly read the text this time.
-Turn around-
I stop walking and wonder if the person texting me is really Ai-chan or some sick stalker that ended up kidnapping Ai-chan and is trying to get me next. I start to panic and have become too terrified to even look behind me. Should I scream? Or should I run and scream?
I take a look at the number calling me again. Yep, it's Ai-chan's number. Slowly, I turn around, bracing myself to make a run for it if I have to. I let out a sigh of relief to find no creepy guy standing behind me, breathing down my neck. I feel angry for being so scared over nothing. I furiously start to send my text message back.
-Quit messing around idiot!!-
I start to walk again, concluding that Ai-chan is just probably bored again and as a source of entertainment, she tends to send me stalker like text messages right about the time when my shift is over to scare me. She started doing this after she broke up with Risa I guess since she never has anything to do at home. Risa was always good at...keeping Ai-chan “busy”. Too lost in my thoughts, I don't see a car slowly pulling up to me until I nearly get the wits scared out of me when I hear someone shout what sounds like an inch away from my ear.
“TANAKA-SAN!!!”
I jump and let out a scream of my own. I whip my head to the right and don't know if I should be relieved or even more angry when I see the person standing out the car window with a large smile in place. Why does she insist on always being so loud?! She's still a bit annoying as ever I see.
“Koharu, what did I tell you about doing that?!” I scold.
“But...Takahashi-san told me to do it. She said it would be funny.” Koharu explains, then starts to laugh. “And she's right.”
I glare at her then march over to the driver seat and knock on the glass. The window lowers just an inch and I can see Ai-chan's eyes peeking through the crack. I can hear her laughing. I glare at her too.
“Yes?” Ai-chan calmly ask.
“I'm going to kill you!” I threaten. “Why do you always have to torture me in some way?!”
Ai-chan laughs again. “I was just having some fun.” She goes back to a more mature like state. “Come on, hope in the car. Koharu and I are going out. We want you to come along.”
I fold my arms over my chest, frowning again. “And where the hell am I gonna go in an outfit like this?! I have to change. Besides, Koharu is too young to go to a club and I'm tired. I just want to go home and sleep.” I protest.
If it isn't Sayu who's trying to make me go out all the time it's Ai-chan, but she does it for a little bit of a different reason. I know that even though Ai-chan watches after me and acts like she's okay she really isn't. I know that Ai-chan is hurting as much as I am and her way of handling it instead of getting drunk a bunch of times like me, is to go out and find a nice girl to fool around with.
That's usually when she's in a bit of a better mood. There are times when Ai-chan just shuts herself in her house and weeps and doesn't return my calls like I'm some type of stranger to her. I'm not sure which one I like better because these two resorts can both be a little extreme sometimes.
“Don't worry about it. I got some extra clothes here in the car. Besides, this is the only day Koharu has free because she's so busy with college entry exams.” Ai-chan encourages. “I'll watch after her so she doesn't end up drinking.”
I scoff. “Don't you mean I'll watch after her for that? Since you like to use me as some sort of designated driver.” I correct.
Ai-chan sighs. “Look, I won't be long. I promise. Just give me two hours then we'll leave and go to my place.” Ai-chan bargains.
I know I can't say no because Ai-chan does so much to make me feel happy. It's like I have to repay her back for the time she spends on cheering me up. Since we're close friends it's only right that we help each other in some way. With that logic in mind, I give in and agree.
“Fine.” I answer.
Ai-chan smiles and unlocks the door. I can hear Koharu shouting again in the back seat. I open the back door and get inside to nearly be smacked against the door when Koharu flings herself at me to hug me. I push her away to get some space to breathe.
“It's good to see you again Tanaka-san!” Koharu giggles. “We'll have so much fun with you here!”
I give Koharu a weary look. “Does Sayu know about this?” I question.
“We asked her to tag along, but she's caught up in too much homework.” Koharu explains. “She's okay with me going though. She trust me.”
I flinch at the mention of trust. That's something I took advantage of with Eri when we were dating. I wish I had a better way of dealing with my problems. It was just too easy to slip into my old ways again.
I think now I'm changing. I'm becoming more responsible. I wish Eri only saw that though. Ai-chan pulls the car into the road and I sit back, trying to relax and wash away the bad memory of my biggest mistake.
Maybe going out with Ai-chan and Koharu isn't that bad. I might be able to just have a good time and get closer to moving on. As much as I don't want to forget Eri, I know that if I don't I'll just end up miserable for the rest of my life. It's difficult to not forget Eri, I know it isn't easy either, but I'm trying to get myself used to not having Eri in my life anymore. It's all I can do now.
@ feralia87- Yes it is. It's the sequel. lol Yes, TakaGaki are also not together. You'll see why...eventually. lol
I hope you enjoy the fic though. @ mmsuki- Yes, there is a prequel and a sequel. I'll probably just focus on the sequel more because it's easier for me to write. It's alright if you didn't comment on TTCL. I have plenty of lurkers who do the same. lol
TanaShige?! And the bigger shock for me...AiEri?!! How can that happen? But you'll see who will be paired with whom later on. CHAPTER 2
The drive to the restaurant Sayu chose wasn't so far from my house. It's probably a thirty minute drive. However, I don't think it gave me enough time to prepare myself for the meeting, or to brace myself if Sayu did bring a date for me.
I'm still a little bit shaken from the last date she tried to hook me up with. When I was directed to my table by the waiter I felt relieved to only see Sayu at the table waiting for us. This meant there was no date for me, just quality bonding with my friends.
“Reina~ Ai-chan!” Sayu yells excitingly. “Sit down. A waiter will come soon.” She sighs. “I'm glad you're here. Since I got here some waiter kept hitting on me. I hope he leaves me alone now that I have some company.”
Sayu is still with Koharu. I don't know how they make it work since Sayu's a college student and Koharu's a senior in high school. They're both very busy, but neither of them come to me about any complaints.
So, I assume their relationship is going well. They're starting to look like the perfect couple compared to Ai-chan and I. Shouldn't we be setting the good example since we're their senpais?
“So...I guess this means we should order.” Ai-chan casually says.
I put a hand to my temple unsure how I can stand being here. I'm regretting this now and I have no reason to, but I sort of feel like...panicking. Everything around me is unsettling. I've been getting that feeling a lot. I can never seem to calm down and I've been fidgeting more because I feel restless. I guess Ai-chan was right when she said I should see a doctor. I sigh.
“Let's get some beer.” I mumble.
“Reina, can't you wait for later?” Ai-chan scolds.
Lately, beer has been what calms my nerves besides yakiniku. Ai-chan likes to monitor my drinking though for some reason. If I wanted to be around my mom I would have told her to move in with me the day dad died, but she's not here. She's with my grandparents and I'm left with a large house to myself.
I know that it's up to the children to look after their retired parents, but since my mother and I bump heads too much I didn't offer her to move in with me. I have too much shit to sort out on my own anyway. Besides...I looked forward to Eri moving in with me.
Wishful thinking now. I sink forward into my seat, resting my elbows on the table. I shake my hand at her to gesture for Ai-chan to leave me alone.
“Then order whatever you want!” I snap.
I'm starting to question why I agreed to come here. I just want to be home possibly sulking. I just can't stop thinking about her.
I need to see Eri. I have to be around her. Without her it just feels different, nothing doesn't feel the same without her. Eri is all I've got left to someone close to me. I wish my uncle weren't dead so he can help me. I feel so lost.
***
“Reina.”
I feel patting on my back and groan. Can't my uncle just let me stay in for a little longer? I roll on to my back and start to go back to sleep. Then the patting gets more frequent and a little painful.
“Reina!”
I feel a sharp pain on my back and grunt. Slowly, I open my eyes to kill the person that woke me. The second I do open my eyes though I close them again and bury my head under a pillow. It feels like I just stared into the sun! The sheets around me gets yanked around to my ankles.
“Turn off the lights!” I shout.
I hear moving around me and then a click. Feeling that it's safe to peek out, I carefully remove the pillow over my head and open my eyes again. It's a lot dimmer.
That's better. I rub my eyes and yawn. Then start to stretch. I slouch forward when I'm done and find it difficult to keep my eyes open.
“Ai-chan what the hell are you doing in my house?” I snap.
“You're at my place Reina.” She corrects. “You got a little too drunk at the restaurant, so I decided to take you to my place to watch after you.”
I look at my surroundings more carefully and see that this isn't my house. I'm in Ai-chan's too cramped apartment. I can't remember even coming here or what happened yesterday. I only hope I didn't make a fool of myself. I look down at myself and see that I'm also not in my own clothing.
“I don't remember wearing this to the restaurant.” I mumble.
“I changed your clothes after you passed out.” Ai-chan answers.
I stare at her wide eyed. Does that mean that she... I see her start to laugh.
“Don't worry I didn't take advantage of you.” Ai-chan promises. “Although...I can see how hard it would for other people to not do that.”
I grab a pillow and chuck it at her head. I can feel my face turning red. Ai-chan continues to laugh and ducks from the pillow. I cross my arms over my chest and glare.
“Shut up Ai-chan!” I growl. “And one more thing, why the hell did you wake me up?”
I see Ai-chan walk over to her closet and pull out a few outfits.
“You have work today did you forget?” Ai-chan replies.
I groan. “I knew I shouldn't have told you my work schedule.” I whine.
I feel something land on my head and block my view. I yank it off and see that it's a T-shirt. I look up at Ai-chan who's giving me a stern look.
I think no matter how much I'll threaten her to let me sleep in she'll always do something to set me straight. She can be very scary when she wants to be especially when she's angry. I scoff.
“Fine! I'll get ready but prepare yourself for when I bitch at you from this headache once I'm done with work.” I threaten.
Ai-chan chuckles, completely unafraid to my threatening. She's learned that I almost never mean the threats I say to her. We have to rely on each other now mostly and within a few months we got to know each other and well I kind of regret that now because to Ai-chan I'm just some little kitten with dull claws. It annoys me and she likes that it does.
Although she might get on my nerves, I'm honestly grateful for Ai-chan since there has been nothing but bad changes in my life. My father died, my uncle died, Eri dumped me, and I'm quiet sure my mother now has money problems since my dad's death. I try to send what I have to her, but if I want to keep this house my uncle gave to me I'll have to try and be on time with payments to the mortgage.
So, if someone were to ask me if I really hate Ai-chan I will easily say no because I'm glad she's my friend. She's really all I have now for advice and comfort even when she's in a struggle herself. It's just right now though I really hate her because I don't want to go to work with a slight hang over!!
I'm sure she wouldn't either if she had one, but I don't have a choice. I get out of bed and stumble to my closet. I still plan to bitch at Ai once I get back from work. It only seems fair to complain to her until she falls asleep or yells at me to shut up. I see Ai-chan exit my room to give me privacy to change and I sigh. It's time to start my miserable day.
***
“Good morning Tanaka-san!!” I groan at my coworker's over excited screaming.
Doesn't she ever know how to shut up for just a second?! I walk to the back of the counter and glare. It must seem to scare her because her smile is gone and she puts on a surprised face. I think I can sort of understand now why she's called me scary before. I take my sunglasses off my face and head to the back to get my apron.
I silently get dressed, not feeling in the mood to be as friendly or talkative. I've been in a bad mood since I woke up. I have a slight hangover, my head is killing me, I'm extremely tired, and still completely heartbroken than I was yesterday.
I think I have some sort of a right to be in a grumpy mood. I also know though that I have to play nice with the customers and my workers included, because I need to keep the house I live in. That's just another piece of stress to add into my life, as if I don't get it enough!
I let out a tired groan then walk out the room when I've finished dressing myself and I'm greeting by my newest coworker again. Her happy smile is back on again. I guess she isn't one to stay upset long.
“Tanaka-san, I know it isn't my business to ask but...are you okay?” she speaks in a caring tone.
Oddly, I feel sort of moved by how much she wants to help me. I've always been mean to her when she first started working here and she knows very little about me, but she still acts so nice to me. I don't know why I feel so guilty suddenly I think the lack of sleep is messing with my emotions. This time when I stare at her I don't glare or frown I have on a calm expression.
“I'm okay Linlin. I've just been having some trouble sleeping lately.” I answer, only telling half of the truth to my moodiness.
“Oh, Tanaka-san, if you're that tired I can take your shift.” Linlin suggests.
Sometimes I wonder how a girl her age can not only be so nice, but so innocent as well. It makes it a little harder for me to continue being mean to her. I feel my face move into a small smile that I'm sure can barely be seen from anyone, but Linlin seems to catch it. She has on an even larger smile now. Then without even expecting it to happen Linlin just yanks me into a hug and I freeze. This has just turned a little awkward now!
“It'll be okay Tanaka-san! I'll do my best to take over your shift as well.” Linlin promises.
I notice that a few people are staring at me and because she's shouting more people are looking at us. Is she trying to embarrass me to death?! I can feel my cheeks starting go hot. I wiggle my way out of her arms and have on a small frown.
“Linlin, can you...not do that...ever again?” I ask. “It makes me uncomfortable!”
“I'm sorry Tanaka-san!” Linlin apologizes, yelling again.
I flinch and hold up a hand to motion for her to remain silent. “It's fine just stop yelling!” I whisper. “And thank you for offering, but I need to take this shift. I'll just have to manage.”
Linlin nodded understanding my reason to decline her offer. She excuses herself, seeing that I've had my fill of speaking with her for today and goes away to serve an incoming customer. I don't know if she acts this way because she's a foreigner, or that's just how her personality is, but sometimes Linlin's excessive energy can be a little too much for me to handle.
She says odd things and acts not how a normal Japanese person should, but the way it is done makes it kind of cute. Sure, she has a strong accent, but she'll have time to adjust to the language. She seems to be doing well already, so Chinese can't be that different to learn another language.
I haven't told her this though, but I do kind of enjoy having her here. Linlin makes my work a little more fun and when I'm feeling down she always finds a way to make me laugh. That's one of the things I liked about her. I take a deep breath, preparing myself to tend to my responsibilities as well. I walk out from behind the counter and go over to the nearest table to take orders. I'll be looking forward to my break.
***
I manage to leave from my shift on time today. It just wasn't as packed and the people who are scheduled to work during the night all came, so that meant I didn't have to stay an extra hour. I can't wait to go home and just sleep.
I know I should start some homework, but I'm just too exhausted. I'll have to remind myself to give Ai-chan a nice whack upside her head for making me go to work on probably less then five hours of sleep. When I step outside, I hear my phone beep and reach inside my purse to answer the text.
I flip open the lid and see that it's Ai-chan. I wonder if I should call her and just give her a piece of my mind while screaming into the phone. I look around me and notice that I'm in public, so that leaves shouting into my phone out of the question unless I want to embarrass myself. I look back to my phone and properly read the text this time.
-Turn around-
I stop walking and wonder if the person texting me is really Ai-chan or some sick stalker that ended up kidnapping Ai-chan and is trying to get me next. I start to panic and have become too terrified to even look behind me. Should I scream? Or should I run and scream?
I take a look at the number calling me again. Yep, it's Ai-chan's number. Slowly, I turn around, bracing myself to make a run for it if I have to. I let out a sigh of relief to find no creepy guy standing behind me, breathing down my neck. I feel angry for being so scared over nothing. I furiously start to send my text message back.
-Quit messing around idiot!!-
I start to walk again, concluding that Ai-chan is just probably bored again and as a source of entertainment, she tends to send me stalker like text messages right about the time when my shift is over to scare me. She started doing this after she broke up with Risa I guess since she never has anything to do at home. Risa was always good at...keeping Ai-chan “busy”. Too lost in my thoughts, I don't see a car slowly pulling up to me until I nearly get the wits scared out of me when I hear someone shout what sounds like an inch away from my ear.
“TANAKA-SAN!!!”
I jump and let out a scream of my own. I whip my head to the right and don't know if I should be relieved or even more angry when I see the person standing out the car window with a large smile in place. Why does she insist on always being so loud?! She's still a bit annoying as ever I see.
“Koharu, what did I tell you about doing that?!” I scold.
“But...Takahashi-san told me to do it. She said it would be funny.” Koharu explains, then starts to laugh. “And she's right.”
I glare at her then march over to the driver seat and knock on the glass. The window lowers just an inch and I can see Ai-chan's eyes peeking through the crack. I can hear her laughing. I glare at her too.
“Yes?” Ai-chan calmly ask.
“I'm going to kill you!” I threaten. “Why do you always have to torture me in some way?!”
Ai-chan laughs again. “I was just having some fun.” She goes back to a more mature like state. “Come on, hope in the car. Koharu and I are going out. We want you to come along.”
I fold my arms over my chest, frowning again. “And where the hell am I gonna go in an outfit like this?! I have to change. Besides, Koharu is too young to go to a club and I'm tired. I just want to go home and sleep.” I protest.
If it isn't Sayu who's trying to make me go out all the time it's Ai-chan, but she does it for a little bit of a different reason. I know that even though Ai-chan watches after me and acts like she's okay she really isn't. I know that Ai-chan is hurting as much as I am and her way of handling it instead of getting drunk a bunch of times like me, is to go out and find a nice girl to fool around with.
That's usually when she's in a bit of a better mood. There are times when Ai-chan just shuts herself in her house and weeps and doesn't return my calls like I'm some type of stranger to her. I'm not sure which one I like better because these two resorts can both be a little extreme sometimes.
“Don't worry about it. I got some extra clothes here in the car. Besides, this is the only day Koharu has free because she's so busy with college entry exams.” Ai-chan encourages. “I'll watch after her so she doesn't end up drinking.”
I scoff. “Don't you mean I'll watch after her for that? Since you like to use me as some sort of designated driver.” I correct.
Ai-chan sighs. “Look, I won't be long. I promise. Just give me two hours then we'll leave and go to my place.” Ai-chan bargains.
I know I can't say no because Ai-chan does so much to make me feel happy. It's like I have to repay her back for the time she spends on cheering me up. Since we're close friends it's only right that we help each other in some way. With that logic in mind, I give in and agree.
“Fine.” I answer.
Ai-chan smiles and unlocks the door. I can hear Koharu shouting again in the back seat. I open the back door and get inside to nearly be smacked against the door when Koharu flings herself at me to hug me. I push her away to get some space to breathe.
“It's good to see you again Tanaka-san!” Koharu giggles. “We'll have so much fun with you here!”
I give Koharu a weary look. “Does Sayu know about this?” I question.
“We asked her to tag along, but she's caught up in too much homework.” Koharu explains. “She's okay with me going though. She trust me.”
I flinch at the mention of trust. That's something I took advantage of with Eri when we were dating. I wish I had a better way of dealing with my problems. It was just too easy to slip into my old ways again.
I think now I'm changing. I'm becoming more responsible. I wish Eri only saw that though. Ai-chan pulls the car into the road and I sit back, trying to relax and wash away the bad memory of my biggest mistake.
Maybe going out with Ai-chan and Koharu isn't that bad. I might be able to just have a good time and get closer to moving on. As much as I don't want to forget Eri, I know that if I don't I'll just end up miserable for the rest of my life. It's difficult to not forget Eri, I know it isn't easy either, but I'm trying to get myself used to not having Eri in my life anymore. It's all I can do now.
In Topic: Writerjunkie's Fics(UPDATE 3/19)
17 March 2011 - 07:37 PM
Yes, it's the sequel to TTCL.
Title: A Thing Called Happiness
CHAPTER 1
“Reina, I told you already!” Eri shouts. “The answer is no!”
I think this is the first time I've ever seen her angry. She would normally be so passive and calm. That's changed lately a lot how our relationship has. I do feel guilty causing her to feel so frustrated and upset, but I have the same emotions too.
I can understand, but this still doesn't mean I won't be persistent. I know that's wrong of me too. I can't just let go.
I can't accept what's just happened to me and Eri. It's a little too difficult to swallow even though it's happened what feels like years ago. As my last resort to win Eri over, I come to visit her almost everyday and beg, just like this. Every time I come to Eri about our relationship she will get sad and almost cry.
I think now she's just fed up with the tears. I gulp, feeling myself about to cry instead. Does this mean we're really over? I clear my throat to try and talk again.
“Please...Eri we need to talk.” I beg. “I'm sorry, okay?! I-I didn't mean to hurt you.”
Eri turns away from me and seeing her do that makes a strange throb in my chest appear. I clutch tightly on to the railing of Eri's porch. What I'm feeling has to be one of the worse feelings I've ever had. It's much worse than the day I caused Eri to go currently blind. I want to cry, but at the same time I want to yell, scream, kick, and even hit Eri.
These are all feelings I've felt whenever I got angry, but since I've came to Tokyo I no longer act on impulses to these feelings anymore. It still doesn't mean that I don't feel hurt, but I try to still mask it. I still feel that I need to remain tough.
I stare at my feet to not show my weakness. I spoke my most honest words with all my sincerity, but I don't think that will cut it. I remove my hand from the rail and that seems to get Eri's attention enough to look at me. I slowly look up, afraid at what I'll find when I look at Eri's face.
“I love you Eri.” I proudly say. “And I know for the pass six months all I've done is hurt you. I understand your choice.” I pause to recollect my feelings.
My chest is aching again. There's a long pause and I know that with her these pauses aren't good. It makes me worry, but the whole few seconds I wait for Eri to say something she doesn't.
And that makes things a lot worse. She has no more power or energy to argue with me. She's given up...with everything, me and our relationship.
“I've always loved you.” I confirm.
What else can I say? If Eri really gave up, why should I continue to fight? I've done all I can. I turn around and walk away.
I can feel Eri's eyes on me as I move. It makes it more difficult to walk away, but I push myself to continue. Isn't this what Eri wants?
When I notice that I'm on the street I don't feel any better. I want to go back to Eri and beg her to take me. I wish we never were apart. That we never broke up. I really do love Eri and I know I made huge mistakes. I wasn't thinking.
I went into a spiral and at the time I didn’t care about Eri. I was so sad. In the past four years, I've graduated high school, entered college, got a job, and lost both my father and uncle in the same month. There have been many things in my life that happened and changed. Now to add to my list, I've lost Eri.
She broke up with me two weeks ago, but it still feels like it just happened yesterday. It's my fault that this happened. I was too busy with classes, my job, and then two of my family members dying just made everything worse. I just sort of...shutdown. Eri had every right to feel hurt, angry, and to leave me.
I sigh, feeling like drowning my sorrow in a bunch of yakiniku and television shows. I enter my house and go straight to the kitchen. I got this house after my uncle died. It was in his will for me to have it if he were to suddenly die. I guess he wanted to make sure I had a good start once I got my degree.
Too bad when he died the mortgage wasn't completely paid off, so now I have to take care of that. That's just another problem in my life. Living in this house kind of makes me feel that I'm growing up too fast, although I've always hated that and want to remain thirteen, I just can't.
The second I got the house I was a little excited. I had my own place and this meant Eri can move in with me. I really looked forward to that and now I just live alone in a three story house. Well...not completely alone, I still have Yuka.
I stomp into the kitchen and peer inside my refrigerator. I take the meat stocked on the first rack and prepare myself to cook it. I hear a familiar meow on the counter and turn around.
“Hi Yuka.” I reply. “I haven't been having a good day.”
She meows again and gets down from the counter to rub against my leg. Sometimes, I'm glad I have Yuka because I know she'll be there to let me hug her and make me not feel lonely. Especially since I've been away from my friends mostly because of college.
I miss them too though. I finish cooking my meal and take it with me to the living room. It's not like I'll gain any weight when I eat this. My metabolism is fast. I take a seat on the couch and Yuka joins me as I turn the TV on. About half way through my meal my phone goes off and I pick it up from the end table.
“What?!” I yell, angry to my interruption.
“Drowning yourself in yakiniku again, Reina?” my friend ask.
“Shut up Ai-chan. At least I don't cry about it like a baby.” I snap.
There's a small pause on her end. I know I've said something offensive, but since I'm in this down feeling I don't care that much. I just want to be left alone, but Ai-chan never does that.
She's my only friend that calls me daily, especially after what happened to Eri and me. I guess she figured she could help or give me some comfort. What she should really be doing is trying to get her own girl back. I still can't get why Ai-chan and Risa broke up and every time Ai-chan isn't willing to tell me why.
“I'll let what you just said slide for now.” Ai-chan decides. “I called in the first place to check on you. Eri didn't accept your apology?”
“If she did I wouldn't be on this phone with you and be having sex right now.” I bluntly answer.
“That's too much information, Reina.” Ai-chan complains. “Listen, instead of depressing yourself let's go out. Sayu invited me to dinner tonight and she wants you to come along.”
Normally, I wouldn't think about this, but I know Sayu has a habit of trying to get Ai-chan and I to date other people since we're single. I know that she's trying to help us, but I really don't want to date anyone new at this moment. All I can think about and focus on is Eri.
“Okay, but if it turns ugly you're taking me to a bar and paying for my drinks.” I threaten.
“Fine, just be ready at eight. I'll pick you up.” Ai-chan agrees.
We both hang up and I glare at the clock. I still have about three hours until we meet. Oddly though, I feel like canceling on them and I feel nervous just thinking about attending dinner with Ai-chan and Sayu. I can't chicken out now though because Ai-chan will nag me about it for weeks.
That really annoys the hell out of me. I've made my choice and so I have to stick with it. I know that doing this will help me forget Eri, but a large part of me doesn't want to forget Eri.
She means so much to me. But I don't think that matters anymore. She left me and we're over.
I wish I can undo everything I've done. That way I wouldn't feel so alone even when my friends are around me. I don't think I can feel anything else besides loneliness.
Title: A Thing Called Happiness
CHAPTER 1
“Reina, I told you already!” Eri shouts. “The answer is no!”
I think this is the first time I've ever seen her angry. She would normally be so passive and calm. That's changed lately a lot how our relationship has. I do feel guilty causing her to feel so frustrated and upset, but I have the same emotions too.
I can understand, but this still doesn't mean I won't be persistent. I know that's wrong of me too. I can't just let go.
I can't accept what's just happened to me and Eri. It's a little too difficult to swallow even though it's happened what feels like years ago. As my last resort to win Eri over, I come to visit her almost everyday and beg, just like this. Every time I come to Eri about our relationship she will get sad and almost cry.
I think now she's just fed up with the tears. I gulp, feeling myself about to cry instead. Does this mean we're really over? I clear my throat to try and talk again.
“Please...Eri we need to talk.” I beg. “I'm sorry, okay?! I-I didn't mean to hurt you.”
Eri turns away from me and seeing her do that makes a strange throb in my chest appear. I clutch tightly on to the railing of Eri's porch. What I'm feeling has to be one of the worse feelings I've ever had. It's much worse than the day I caused Eri to go currently blind. I want to cry, but at the same time I want to yell, scream, kick, and even hit Eri.
These are all feelings I've felt whenever I got angry, but since I've came to Tokyo I no longer act on impulses to these feelings anymore. It still doesn't mean that I don't feel hurt, but I try to still mask it. I still feel that I need to remain tough.
I stare at my feet to not show my weakness. I spoke my most honest words with all my sincerity, but I don't think that will cut it. I remove my hand from the rail and that seems to get Eri's attention enough to look at me. I slowly look up, afraid at what I'll find when I look at Eri's face.
“I love you Eri.” I proudly say. “And I know for the pass six months all I've done is hurt you. I understand your choice.” I pause to recollect my feelings.
My chest is aching again. There's a long pause and I know that with her these pauses aren't good. It makes me worry, but the whole few seconds I wait for Eri to say something she doesn't.
And that makes things a lot worse. She has no more power or energy to argue with me. She's given up...with everything, me and our relationship.
“I've always loved you.” I confirm.
What else can I say? If Eri really gave up, why should I continue to fight? I've done all I can. I turn around and walk away.
I can feel Eri's eyes on me as I move. It makes it more difficult to walk away, but I push myself to continue. Isn't this what Eri wants?
When I notice that I'm on the street I don't feel any better. I want to go back to Eri and beg her to take me. I wish we never were apart. That we never broke up. I really do love Eri and I know I made huge mistakes. I wasn't thinking.
I went into a spiral and at the time I didn’t care about Eri. I was so sad. In the past four years, I've graduated high school, entered college, got a job, and lost both my father and uncle in the same month. There have been many things in my life that happened and changed. Now to add to my list, I've lost Eri.
She broke up with me two weeks ago, but it still feels like it just happened yesterday. It's my fault that this happened. I was too busy with classes, my job, and then two of my family members dying just made everything worse. I just sort of...shutdown. Eri had every right to feel hurt, angry, and to leave me.
I sigh, feeling like drowning my sorrow in a bunch of yakiniku and television shows. I enter my house and go straight to the kitchen. I got this house after my uncle died. It was in his will for me to have it if he were to suddenly die. I guess he wanted to make sure I had a good start once I got my degree.
Too bad when he died the mortgage wasn't completely paid off, so now I have to take care of that. That's just another problem in my life. Living in this house kind of makes me feel that I'm growing up too fast, although I've always hated that and want to remain thirteen, I just can't.
The second I got the house I was a little excited. I had my own place and this meant Eri can move in with me. I really looked forward to that and now I just live alone in a three story house. Well...not completely alone, I still have Yuka.
I stomp into the kitchen and peer inside my refrigerator. I take the meat stocked on the first rack and prepare myself to cook it. I hear a familiar meow on the counter and turn around.
“Hi Yuka.” I reply. “I haven't been having a good day.”
She meows again and gets down from the counter to rub against my leg. Sometimes, I'm glad I have Yuka because I know she'll be there to let me hug her and make me not feel lonely. Especially since I've been away from my friends mostly because of college.
I miss them too though. I finish cooking my meal and take it with me to the living room. It's not like I'll gain any weight when I eat this. My metabolism is fast. I take a seat on the couch and Yuka joins me as I turn the TV on. About half way through my meal my phone goes off and I pick it up from the end table.
“What?!” I yell, angry to my interruption.
“Drowning yourself in yakiniku again, Reina?” my friend ask.
“Shut up Ai-chan. At least I don't cry about it like a baby.” I snap.
There's a small pause on her end. I know I've said something offensive, but since I'm in this down feeling I don't care that much. I just want to be left alone, but Ai-chan never does that.
She's my only friend that calls me daily, especially after what happened to Eri and me. I guess she figured she could help or give me some comfort. What she should really be doing is trying to get her own girl back. I still can't get why Ai-chan and Risa broke up and every time Ai-chan isn't willing to tell me why.
“I'll let what you just said slide for now.” Ai-chan decides. “I called in the first place to check on you. Eri didn't accept your apology?”
“If she did I wouldn't be on this phone with you and be having sex right now.” I bluntly answer.
“That's too much information, Reina.” Ai-chan complains. “Listen, instead of depressing yourself let's go out. Sayu invited me to dinner tonight and she wants you to come along.”
Normally, I wouldn't think about this, but I know Sayu has a habit of trying to get Ai-chan and I to date other people since we're single. I know that she's trying to help us, but I really don't want to date anyone new at this moment. All I can think about and focus on is Eri.
“Okay, but if it turns ugly you're taking me to a bar and paying for my drinks.” I threaten.
“Fine, just be ready at eight. I'll pick you up.” Ai-chan agrees.
We both hang up and I glare at the clock. I still have about three hours until we meet. Oddly though, I feel like canceling on them and I feel nervous just thinking about attending dinner with Ai-chan and Sayu. I can't chicken out now though because Ai-chan will nag me about it for weeks.
That really annoys the hell out of me. I've made my choice and so I have to stick with it. I know that doing this will help me forget Eri, but a large part of me doesn't want to forget Eri.
She means so much to me. But I don't think that matters anymore. She left me and we're over.
I wish I can undo everything I've done. That way I wouldn't feel so alone even when my friends are around me. I don't think I can feel anything else besides loneliness.
