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She definitely knows how much she's loved. 

Rina (her sister) tweeted about it once about how happy she is to know that she is loved even until now.

I think her absence on social media is an attribute to her quirkiness and randomness.

Even during the FIVESTAR blog her updates were inconsistent and random.

Niigaki was the one who updated the blog properly.

When Sayumi first started her blog, she was the one pushing Sayumi to spend time with her more in person, rather than keep looking at her phone.

I think it just speaks to her as a person, that she prefers face-to-face meeting rather than keeping an online presence.

And it's probably why out of all the Eririn oshi I've met, none of us has ever stop loving her.

Even if we're into other groups, or other members, or even quit the wota life altogether, 

We still miss her till this day. 

A happy and joyous day all around!
Happy birthday to my favourite turtle :3

Looks like Rina (Eri's sister) just tweeted about it too!

https://twitter.com/...640627194142722

Coincidentally, today is also exactly 5 years from the day she graduated. I miss her still.

^ I totally get it. I still haven't brought myself to watch the grad and the DVD is just sitting there on my shelf. Every year when December rolls around, I thought I would definitely watch it but the heartbreak was just too real. Maybe this year I will, I don't know. After EJL graduated, I was really closed off with the H!P community, I basically stop watching or update myself with the them & the fans. I just lost interest.

This is probably weird but I think Ellen Degeneres says it best with "When your heart is broken, when it has cracks in it, it lets the light in. " I was really focusing purely into Morning Musume & Hello!Project and just started to venture out to other idol groups about 2-3 years ago. I still miss Eri, badly at times, the pangs come and go. But now I get to do things I wanted to do for a long time. I went to Japan for the first time in May this year. I gathered the courage and talk with idols in Japanese. I took chekis, I went to lives. I did things that I wanted to do 5 years ago, when I didn't have this opportunity. 

And sometimes, I wished I could do all this 5, 6 years ago or even way back when, when Eri is still in the group. I wished they had twitter, and blogs, and instagram for me to reach them quickly on this other side of the country. I wished I was more fluent in Japanese back then so I can convey what I want to say. I didn't get a chance to meet Eri, but she still stays as my number one oshimen of all time. No matter how many idols I meet. 

What I'm trying to say it's okay to feel happy and sad at the same time. It's okay to move on and still think about her. I know I do.

I found a familiar face when I watching my weekly dose of "Why did YOU come to Japan?"

http://youtu.be/Xgj9tNbvsZ0?t=9m13s