Mierna

Mierna. Otherwise known as littlelarciel elsewhere. It seems no matter how long I stray away from the H!P ship, I'll always keep coming back. I've been a fan since 2007. I've had plenty of my down moments, but the departures of Kanna and Koharu in 2009 almost assured I would no longer be the hyper fangirl I once was.

For some unexplainable reason, Ikuta is the one member I'm attracted to in this 'current Momusu', even when the idea of a line-up of eight teens younger than me and two twenty-year-olds seems laughable. Momoko and Airi hold my respect, and may Berryz Kobo and C-ute be the stable, powerful groups that they are. Mano I have almost forgotten. The breaking of the S/mileage who were established as a core quartet has shattered my expectations of them. I am still not ready to accept that change just yet.

Technically, the only way I show my appreciation as a fan is by editing H!P's articles at the generasia Wiki. It's an obsessive process, in which I feel so competitive that if even one user changes or undos my contributions, I get mad and leave almost instantly. But I keep coming back. I have the process too well cemented in my head. Hello! Project is what shaped my foundation of J-pop and Japanese culture in general. To say Japan does not have an impact on my life would be a terrible understatement. Maybe if it weren't for that, I wouldn't have the guts to be gushing over a Japanese-only video game called FINAL FANTASY Type-0. Yes, it's taken over a big part of my fandom love, and I have no regrets in loving it as I do so.

So, I may not be the most outstanding fan. I may not know every single fact about my favorite members. I may not know what is perfect in terms of appearance or skills or character. But I'm still a fan, in my own little way. And that's what counts.