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I feel kinda sad...

Posted by Snipey, 10 February 2018 · 750 views

Now I'm not here writing for pity or anyone feeling sorry for me (So WhY ArE YoU WRiTiNG?) but I just needed to get something off my chest.

I'm generally an optimistic and happy person, literally always smiling and joking around. Although in recent years, I guess now that I understand a lot of issues and things more, there's always a nagging feeling of sorrow. Unease at times.

Perhaps it's worry for the future, I mean I'm in my mid twenties, single and have been forever, and finding it difficult to find someone for myself.

Another could also be the love for my family. With my dad ill, I get random bursts of sadness, like I imagine life without him and think, shit. (Bear in mind I still live with my parents, culture shock omg lol)

But now another thing has hit us.
My 3 year old niece has gone for some tests, we fear it could be leukemia.

Dad with cancer, my aunt has it and now possibly my niece. I normally bottle my emotions up, which is bad I know, but at the same time I want to be strong for others.

Life is hard, but I also think we really have grown close through these trials. My little monster gets her diva moments at times, but she can be a real sweety too.


2017 was certainly a very tough year for us all, I get kinda angry just thinking about it, yet at the same time I remember just how much we have all matured in that one year. Be it my parents or siblings. I've realised just who has been there for us and how some have only trested us like we have never even existed in their lives.

I may not be making any sense for some of you, perhaps this may resonate to a few (cry cry don't cry) but I really needed to vent out somehow.


Anyway don't want to depress you all ^^; hope you have a nice day/good night.




Oh my god I am so sorry that is awful. 

My thoughts to you and your family. It is so important in such times to stay close to one another, so it made me happy to read that this is what is happening to you.

If there is anything at all that a stranger far away can do for you, let me know. (Anything from sending you stupid memes or drawings or pictures of cute animals to paying for a cup of coffee or something I'm so sorry)

I hope 2018 is a better year for you.

And I know it's silly but could you hug your Dad, aunt and niece from me and tell them I believe in them? (You can also definitely chose not to do that if it is weird, I'm sorry)

Haha you're such a sweet and no it isn't weird at all. I saw my niece today and apparently she just has very low blood levels which causes bruising but oh thank God, I gave her a huuuuuge hug (from u too).

And aww I love memes, stupid/funny videos or just about anything cute. I don't mind any random messages of fluffyness, thank you!

I feel a lot better today, even with setbacks...it's life. Sometimes it gets overwhelming but I am glad our family is so open minded about it all.

Thanks again! <3333
I know I don't normally talk about my personal life, and sometimes I find it weird when people do to strangers, but sometimes you have to get some things off your chest.

I now feel like the 'apparently' boy except with sometimes.

I am so happy to hear about your niece! And aww yayy thank you for hugging her. 

Im glad to hear that you feel better, it's definitely important to get stuff off ones chest every once in a while.

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Here's a sleepy kitten. 

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kitten in a tophat

 

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Mohawk Pupper

 

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and a hug

Literally beaming here and thanks again! <333
They're so cute.

2018 will be a better year for u!

I can relate to a lot of what you said. I had *similar* stuff happened to me, read as in, not the same but enough to understand how you might feel. 

 

What I can say now without trying to make this about myself, enjoy your family as you seem to do! (so I'm not sure why I'm even saying it heh) I took some stuff for granted and have some regrets. Also from the comments, glad what your niece had wasn't serious!

 

I don't know where you are from but a lot of people from their mid twenties live with their parents in my country, renting is hella expensive. 

 

Hard experiences really makes us grow, but the process is awful. It also makes us value the people we really need in our life, some people isn't really worth our time. 

 

Anyway, if you need to vent, I'm also open for pms! Even if it's on a letter you'll never send or sth, don't bottle up that stuff too much.

 

About memes, this one makes me happy 

2018 will be a better year for u!

Thanks!

I can relate to a lot of what you said. I had *similar* stuff happened to me, read as in, not the same but enough to understand how you might feel. 

 

What I can say now without trying to make this about myself, enjoy your family as you seem to do! (so I'm not sure why I'm even saying it heh) I took some stuff for granted and have some regrets. Also from the comments, glad what your niece had wasn't serious!

 

I don't know where you are from but a lot of people from their mid twenties live with their parents in my country, renting is hella expensive. 

 

Hard experiences really makes us grow, but the process is awful. It also makes us value the people we really need in our life, some people isn't really worth our time. 

 

Anyway, if you need to vent, I'm also open for pms! Even if it's on a letter you'll never send or sth, don't bottle up that stuff too much.

 

About memes, this one makes me happy 

I'm from England, but Asian so yeah it's kinda normal to do so in our culture.

I think it's also good to share about yourself, I don't think of it as something selfish but more so something I could relate to and perhaps we could also help one another.

 

OMG SHOOTING STARs...I love this song and I LOVE DOGS!

 

Srsly thanks a lot everyone!!

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