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I got this professor, whom I have admired for the three years of my college. and so tonight, she finally accepted my friend request after two years (lol) *banzai!*
I told her I'll floodlike (just a tease). Since I was so thrilled about this event, I however, did began liking stuffs on her account that I wished I could have liked before. AND IT SHOWED ON MUTUAL FRIENDS' TIMELINE. which included classmates, whom several are online at the same moment. Good thing a classmate is staying overnight at my place, and she was able to inform me that it did show on her timeline.,, and the way it showed simultaneously and how stalker-ish it appears.
I kind of winced when she teased me "stalker" though. I might as well seem so to everyone else who saw that too *cold sweat*
I kinda hated myself for acting impulsively too. I realized I might be now a total creep to my professor. I know my professor knows how much I like her, I did tell her myself, in that student-teacher admiration kind of way. Though I'm pretty unsure myself how much I like the woman. I kinda like the mysterious distance imposed between us, like we can't be close as much as she is with my classmates, the way I make it obvious and shy at the same time. Like how she seemed curious to me, or to my behavior...
Yes, I'm a total creep ma'am. I'm sorry for letting you know *sigh*
And that's how everything, and my fantasies shattered tonight.
It's so tragic lol 
After how careful and measured I have been around her. How I was gradually attaining the desired effect... What a huge turn-off!!!!! *cries*
As much as I have been happy. It was still a fail after all. I don't know how I'll look at her next monday meeting. Or how will my classmate's teasing will make me horribly guilty... of being a creep in front of her. I am so down. Fall Backk!!!! Night! *sulks in the corner*
I told her I'll floodlike (just a tease). Since I was so thrilled about this event, I however, did began liking stuffs on her account that I wished I could have liked before. AND IT SHOWED ON MUTUAL FRIENDS' TIMELINE. which included classmates, whom several are online at the same moment. Good thing a classmate is staying overnight at my place, and she was able to inform me that it did show on her timeline.,, and the way it showed simultaneously and how stalker-ish it appears.
I kind of winced when she teased me "stalker" though. I might as well seem so to everyone else who saw that too *cold sweat*
I kinda hated myself for acting impulsively too. I realized I might be now a total creep to my professor. I know my professor knows how much I like her, I did tell her myself, in that student-teacher admiration kind of way. Though I'm pretty unsure myself how much I like the woman. I kinda like the mysterious distance imposed between us, like we can't be close as much as she is with my classmates, the way I make it obvious and shy at the same time. Like how she seemed curious to me, or to my behavior...
Yes, I'm a total creep ma'am. I'm sorry for letting you know *sigh*
And that's how everything, and my fantasies shattered tonight.
It's so tragic lol After how careful and measured I have been around her. How I was gradually attaining the desired effect... What a huge turn-off!!!!! *cries*As much as I have been happy. It was still a fail after all. I don't know how I'll look at her next monday meeting. Or how will my classmate's teasing will make me horribly guilty... of being a creep in front of her. I am so down. Fall Backk!!!! Night! *sulks in the corner*
Sensei noticed meeee Kyaaaa ~