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I was watching this uploaded PV of Towa no Uta in youtube (for the first time) and can't help but also read the subtitles on the bottom and remember how random Berryz lyrics were, even more random than momusu's that sometimes it make no sense at all. You can't make a proper thought with all those random YEAHYEAH parts and weird vocals going in between lines.
But I also realized how through my adolescence I've soaked myself with these H!P songs that meant friendship, dreams and unrequited loves or tragic love-endings. Maybe there are other songs but those were mostly I can remember and my favorite songs did only mean those three things. Unconsciously, these are also the things that made-up my life. So far my life had only revolved in these things: friends and goals. Family too, basics of traditional values.
Now where the unrequited love or broken-haarto fit in here?
Year's ending and I was having a debate with myself of what I had become or ended-up to be. Why I was different from everyone else. I got friends, very normal friends, who got boyfriends and all (who ALL got boyfriends. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? HAHA), who however won't be graduating the same time as me (I'm translating this to different set of goals, or priority). All this time I had kept myself away from this matter we call "love", and once or twice placed myself in a position of unrequited love (or perhaps, ignored potential lovelife, only referring it to unrequited as I self-pity). Definitely I had felt broken out of those. And then I'll be in front of everyone, with that bouncing energy and looking ahead towards a bright future. Just like the ever-positive trait of these faved idols. Ask me why not entertain him or him or them or anybody at all, answer like "I don't need one! Why would I need one? haha!
" there must be something wrong with me, right? tell me tell me!
I realized that I really had never been much of a listener of other junk most people would listen to. Justin Bieber (well, counting this since I started as a fan, 2009), Gaga, Miley, or whut, Katy and other local artistes that sings about love and allll. What normal would actually sound like. What a normal youth would actually sound like if put into a song- no I don't know and I don't listen to it (or care about it). What other people my age consumes normally. I’m not so much into it. And indeed, I don’t feel normal at all.
I'm curious if somehow, your life, can be affected by the songs that you were exposed to, through affecting the way your brain works (unconsciously?). One may not precisely understand what the Japanese lyrics meant, but with the help of translations, you’d at least have an idea what you’re listening at every time you hear it.
Well there are other H!P related stuffs or form that I had consumed through this six years, not only songs, such as fanfics, plays/storylines that are limited in content, and the idol themselves of course (through blogs, interviews and etc.). I believe media has a way in developing one’s mind, or even the world in general. It happened that H!P influenced me for the most part, if not entirely.
March 2009 when I found a picture of who I thought the cutest person I had ever seen, to December 2014 approaching 2015 in few days.
What happened to me? Graduating from university, hoping to have a good career, single and (care)free.
But I also realized how through my adolescence I've soaked myself with these H!P songs that meant friendship, dreams and unrequited loves or tragic love-endings. Maybe there are other songs but those were mostly I can remember and my favorite songs did only mean those three things. Unconsciously, these are also the things that made-up my life. So far my life had only revolved in these things: friends and goals. Family too, basics of traditional values.
Now where the unrequited love or broken-haarto fit in here?
Year's ending and I was having a debate with myself of what I had become or ended-up to be. Why I was different from everyone else. I got friends, very normal friends, who got boyfriends and all (who ALL got boyfriends. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? HAHA), who however won't be graduating the same time as me (I'm translating this to different set of goals, or priority). All this time I had kept myself away from this matter we call "love", and once or twice placed myself in a position of unrequited love (or perhaps, ignored potential lovelife, only referring it to unrequited as I self-pity). Definitely I had felt broken out of those. And then I'll be in front of everyone, with that bouncing energy and looking ahead towards a bright future. Just like the ever-positive trait of these faved idols. Ask me why not entertain him or him or them or anybody at all, answer like "I don't need one! Why would I need one? haha!
" there must be something wrong with me, right? tell me tell me! I realized that I really had never been much of a listener of other junk most people would listen to. Justin Bieber (well, counting this since I started as a fan, 2009), Gaga, Miley, or whut, Katy and other local artistes that sings about love and allll. What normal would actually sound like. What a normal youth would actually sound like if put into a song- no I don't know and I don't listen to it (or care about it). What other people my age consumes normally. I’m not so much into it. And indeed, I don’t feel normal at all.
I'm curious if somehow, your life, can be affected by the songs that you were exposed to, through affecting the way your brain works (unconsciously?). One may not precisely understand what the Japanese lyrics meant, but with the help of translations, you’d at least have an idea what you’re listening at every time you hear it.
Well there are other H!P related stuffs or form that I had consumed through this six years, not only songs, such as fanfics, plays/storylines that are limited in content, and the idol themselves of course (through blogs, interviews and etc.). I believe media has a way in developing one’s mind, or even the world in general. It happened that H!P influenced me for the most part, if not entirely.
March 2009 when I found a picture of who I thought the cutest person I had ever seen, to December 2014 approaching 2015 in few days.
What happened to me? Graduating from university, hoping to have a good career, single and (care)free.
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