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So what do I write here? It's the end of what has been, by far, the most emotionally exhausting year of my life.
I mean I could list all the things that have happened, but what would that do?
I saw some pink flamingos right now...I don't know if they saw me...I'm sure we'll never run into each other again, but that's okay. Because although out paths may never cross again, it's enough, the brief two seconds of our encounter, for me to keep on doing whatever it is that I want to do.
"Things come and go." is what has been the theme for this year.
Lots of things have come into my life this past year, and lots of things (and people) have left it.
I use to be terrified of this. And I wanted to hold onto everything and everybody; desperately I tried to do this...but it's impossible. The only thing I can try and do is remember. Remember everything...the good...the bad...the ugly...the beautiful. And it's because this is what life has to offer, right? Life just can't be all up and no down, right? Life is life...simple as that.
I've learned this year that you can only hold your hand out for so long with hope that whomever it is that has fallen, takes you hand and gets back up. But sometimes that person doesn't see your hand or maybe doesn't want to take your hand...and that's okay. Sometimes a person has to stay on the ground for a while before they realize that they've fallen, gotten hurt and that now they have two options...
Sit down and stay down and watch the world keep on going...
Or get up...grow old with the earth and with all other things and people...to learn...to teach...to create...to live...and to someday...die...
"...die..." it's the same end that we all have to face one day. Our body and mind will end up back where it came from…into non-existence…nothingness…and the world will keep on going.
That fact alone scares me…even has I wrote that I had to fight back the tears. But it’s okay…because it scared me for the good. “Life is one time,” we've all heard that before. So why waste the only chance you got? You have one shot at this…to make something…to do something that will keep your spirit living on. While your mind and body may be no more…your spirit can live on…through others. And it’s that fact alone that has pushed me to live my life. To hold out my hand, for help, and to help others, but only for so long, because if you rely on others too much, or you let others rely on you too much…you lose your life. And if there’s one thing that is worse than being dead and not knowing that you’re dead is knowing that you’re alive and that you’re no longer able to live your life.
You only have this one chance…for everything else in life you may have two…or three…or 50 chances, but being able to live life…your life…you have only one. So be as selfish as you possibly can be when it comes to living YOUR live.
There are going to be people that try and bring you down with them…and to those people who intentionally sit your ass on the ground and try to bring everybody else down with you…I don’t even want to spit on you…but instead I think the better thing for me to do…is leave. Leave your ass on the ground and keep on walking. And to those who have fallen, my hand is there…it use be that it was “always” there…but that would mean that I would have to stand there for the rest of my life and watch the world pass on by me too. And that’s not living; I would rather be dead.
So if you fall, and you have the privilege of having somebody, stranger or not…extend their hand out to help you up…take it. Take that hand, realize why you have fallen, learn from it and keep on living. You may fall again…we all fall. But when we do fall…WE…ourselves…have to make that choice to get up. Some may have it harder than others; some do more than just fall. Some trip, fall and roll…and it make take you a little longer to realize what the hell just happened, but it’s our duty to learn how to recover and recover fast. Because if we don’t, and we take too long to get up, the world we knew may have left to a point in which we may never be able to catch up to. And when that happens, you can only dust yourself off and run. Run till the very end. Because we all meet the same end…we’re all racing to reach the finish line, but just think, life is once, but death is an eternity. So while you may have been left behind by others, or may have left behind others, we’ll all meet up someday. And we’ll all sit down, retell our stories, in that in itself will take another eternity.
This is what I like to believe. It makes me happy. Life makes me happy. I’m happy.
2013 was a great year. And I can only imagine the greatness that 2014 will have in store for all of us. It’s not going to be easy…we all grew up knowing that a life of nothing but ease was and is impossible. Life has ups and it has downs. Just like how all life comes to an end, that fact is something we cannot change. So you have to learn to just deal with it. You take what you’re given and you make the best of it. Life gives you some god damn lemons you better make some god damn lemonade that tastes like it came from the heavens above…or you make some average lemonade…either way…you made something, and that’s what life is about.
Making something out of nothing. It’s what we do. It’s what I want to do…and I call that living.
Happy New Year’s Eve everybody.
Stay safe and I love you all,
Miguel (槙土) Angel Perez.
I mean I could list all the things that have happened, but what would that do?
I saw some pink flamingos right now...I don't know if they saw me...I'm sure we'll never run into each other again, but that's okay. Because although out paths may never cross again, it's enough, the brief two seconds of our encounter, for me to keep on doing whatever it is that I want to do.
"Things come and go." is what has been the theme for this year.
Lots of things have come into my life this past year, and lots of things (and people) have left it.
I use to be terrified of this. And I wanted to hold onto everything and everybody; desperately I tried to do this...but it's impossible. The only thing I can try and do is remember. Remember everything...the good...the bad...the ugly...the beautiful. And it's because this is what life has to offer, right? Life just can't be all up and no down, right? Life is life...simple as that.
I've learned this year that you can only hold your hand out for so long with hope that whomever it is that has fallen, takes you hand and gets back up. But sometimes that person doesn't see your hand or maybe doesn't want to take your hand...and that's okay. Sometimes a person has to stay on the ground for a while before they realize that they've fallen, gotten hurt and that now they have two options...
Sit down and stay down and watch the world keep on going...
Or get up...grow old with the earth and with all other things and people...to learn...to teach...to create...to live...and to someday...die...
"...die..." it's the same end that we all have to face one day. Our body and mind will end up back where it came from…into non-existence…nothingness…and the world will keep on going.
That fact alone scares me…even has I wrote that I had to fight back the tears. But it’s okay…because it scared me for the good. “Life is one time,” we've all heard that before. So why waste the only chance you got? You have one shot at this…to make something…to do something that will keep your spirit living on. While your mind and body may be no more…your spirit can live on…through others. And it’s that fact alone that has pushed me to live my life. To hold out my hand, for help, and to help others, but only for so long, because if you rely on others too much, or you let others rely on you too much…you lose your life. And if there’s one thing that is worse than being dead and not knowing that you’re dead is knowing that you’re alive and that you’re no longer able to live your life.
You only have this one chance…for everything else in life you may have two…or three…or 50 chances, but being able to live life…your life…you have only one. So be as selfish as you possibly can be when it comes to living YOUR live.
There are going to be people that try and bring you down with them…and to those people who intentionally sit your ass on the ground and try to bring everybody else down with you…I don’t even want to spit on you…but instead I think the better thing for me to do…is leave. Leave your ass on the ground and keep on walking. And to those who have fallen, my hand is there…it use be that it was “always” there…but that would mean that I would have to stand there for the rest of my life and watch the world pass on by me too. And that’s not living; I would rather be dead.
So if you fall, and you have the privilege of having somebody, stranger or not…extend their hand out to help you up…take it. Take that hand, realize why you have fallen, learn from it and keep on living. You may fall again…we all fall. But when we do fall…WE…ourselves…have to make that choice to get up. Some may have it harder than others; some do more than just fall. Some trip, fall and roll…and it make take you a little longer to realize what the hell just happened, but it’s our duty to learn how to recover and recover fast. Because if we don’t, and we take too long to get up, the world we knew may have left to a point in which we may never be able to catch up to. And when that happens, you can only dust yourself off and run. Run till the very end. Because we all meet the same end…we’re all racing to reach the finish line, but just think, life is once, but death is an eternity. So while you may have been left behind by others, or may have left behind others, we’ll all meet up someday. And we’ll all sit down, retell our stories, in that in itself will take another eternity.
This is what I like to believe. It makes me happy. Life makes me happy. I’m happy.
2013 was a great year. And I can only imagine the greatness that 2014 will have in store for all of us. It’s not going to be easy…we all grew up knowing that a life of nothing but ease was and is impossible. Life has ups and it has downs. Just like how all life comes to an end, that fact is something we cannot change. So you have to learn to just deal with it. You take what you’re given and you make the best of it. Life gives you some god damn lemons you better make some god damn lemonade that tastes like it came from the heavens above…or you make some average lemonade…either way…you made something, and that’s what life is about.
Making something out of nothing. It’s what we do. It’s what I want to do…and I call that living.
Happy New Year’s Eve everybody.
Stay safe and I love you all,
Miguel (槙土) Angel Perez.
